Healing the dark past…

“The butterfly does not look back at the caterpillar in shame, jus as you should not look back at your past in shame. Your past was part of your own transformation”, that’s the message that I read clearly this morning in Ashram. To be frank, the difference between the dark life and the bright one is how one look and transform the past. Life will be dark if people focus on the pain and punishment of the past. The good news, life can be bright, if you forgive, take the lessons of the past, and let yourself being elevated by those lessons. Forgiving is the first and the most crucial part. How to open the gate of forgiving, look deep into the suffering of people who make you suffer.

In a metaphorical explanation, if God is positioned as a painter, forgiving is the earer. Without eraser, all paintings will not be beautiful. In the same way, without the sincerity to forgive, your painting of life will not be beautiful. From forgiving, take the lessons. At least, the lesson of being mature. The lesson of not making the same mistake. The peak of this journey, the dark past can make you wise in the old age especially. You’ll be full of understanding to your grand children and younger generations. From the last flower of undertanding comes the fragrance of loving-kindness and compassion. In short, the dark past does not make life dark. The dark past help you to meet the light. To serve fellow light seeker to dive deepers, now let’s meditate together.

It is a profound spiritual journey…

To bring energy of healing to the dark past is a profound journey, often marked by pain, reflection, and ultimately, transformation. It requires a willingness to confront and understand the trauma and hardships that have shaped one’s experiences. The first step in this process is acknowledging the pain. Denial can perpetuate suffering, while acceptance opens the door to healing. This acknowledgment doesn’t mean dwelling on the past but rather recognizing its impact and how it has influenced one’s present state.

Let me repeat this important message: “Denial perpetuate suffering. Acceptance bring healing”. Louise Hay in her masterpiece “You can heal your life” is very clear in this case: “Behind all suffering there’s always self-denial”. In other words, say goodbye to any denial of the past. Be the good friend of self-acceptance. Never forget, the dark past is not here to bring darkness, but to facilitate you to open the gate of light.

From victim, survivor to thriver…

Forgiveness, both of oneself and others, plays a pivotal role in healing. It’s not about excusing the actions that caused harm but rather releasing the hold they have on one’s emotions and mental state. Forgiveness allows individuals to reclaim their power and move forward without the burden of resentment. In the language of Nelson Mandela, without forgiving you’ll bring portable prison wherever you go. When you forgive both yourself and the others, you open the gate of freedom.

In addition, developing a new narrative about the past is also important. Instead of seeing oneself as a victim, one can adopt the perspective of a survivor or thriver, someone who has endured and emerged stronger. This shift in mindset can be empowering and transformative. It’s one of beautiful gift that you can give to your soul journey.

In summary, healing from a dark past is not about erasing the pain but integrating it into a broader narrative of resilience and growth. It’s about finding meaning in the suffering and using it as a foundation for a brighter, more hopeful future. This journey, while challenging, leads to profound personal growth and a deeper understanding of oneself.

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About the author

H.H. Guruji Gede Prama

Gede Prama started his spiritual journey through a dialogue with his symbolic Guru in a village at the north of Bali. The journey is then being enriched with his experiences of studying abroad, his meetings with the world greatest spiritual Gurus: His Holiness Dalai Lama, The Venerable Thich Nhat Hanh, as well as Professor Karen Armstrong; and also being deepened by his intense meditation practices.

Despite the fact that he was once a CEO of a large corporation with thousand of employees, and was traveling abroad frequently for the purpose of teaching, yet, being deeply moved by the Bali bombing incident in 2002, he then decided to leave everything and went back to his home island.
He has never leave Bali for the past few years. In fact, he rarely leaves the silence of the forest where he lives, except for the purpose of teaching at the sacred sites within Bali.

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